you're my playground love

Monday, May 28, 2007

>>> 280507

no matter how the call goes tonight (though i have a sense of impending doom)... thanks to everyone who asked (and more imptly, gave me advice or comforted me!)... it really meant a lot.

though i dun really appreciate it if u have nothing to contribute and ask just cause ure kpo... zzzzz.

going to fitness first with mavis now!

(the call afterwards... ARGH!!!)

{ fate can act in a curious way } 5:19 PM

Sunday, May 27, 2007

>>> 270507

fuck pissed i want to give up.

AAAA A2 isnt enough for anyone is it?!?!?!! neither is 6 pts. or 6a1 4a2. fuck i am so pissed.

no wait it is enough for smu econs. for which ACCC is enough.

fuck fuck fuck i hate my life.

one day if i kill myself you'll know that its cause i cldnt take life no more.

DAMN FUCKING ANGRY OKAY I HATE MY LIFE NOTHING'S EVER GOOD ENOUGH.

and dont tell me that smu is very good cos its NOT my first choice and NOTHING is going to change that. personal choice. if u think its damn good then its ure problem.

{ fate can act in a curious way } 2:35 AM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

>>> 160507

okay tmr will be the day i freaking submit the freaking THING. wtf damn disgusting i am so sick of it OKAY.

i think my blog readership has fallen like crazy but whatever la i need to fa xie.

anw i've realised smth playing pk... i think a lot of pple play online games to run away from reality, in a way. cause as i spend more and more time on it (jobless mah) i can feel like it really sort of takes u over (i think la)... and i think some pple do stuff in online games cos they cant do it in reality... like a lot of guys are damn despo there cos they're probably losers in real life (okay this is just an example lah)... but online nobody knows and u can make ure char damn powerful if u play like hell every single day... and nobody will ever know ure loser in real life. on the contrary they'll think ure damn shen cause ure char is lvl 70+... -.- actually i have personal exp also but dont feel like saying here HAHA... NOT that i go jio guys on pk lah -_______-"

T.T

escapism, i think. cause there're so many inhibitions in real life, and expectations that u have to adhere to, and sometimes when u think of what ure friends or whatever will say... u cant do what u want anymore.

dunno how many people understand this... but yeah.

obviously playing too much isnt healthy la. but just my reflections lor. haha.

{ fate can act in a curious way } 2:46 AM

Friday, May 11, 2007

>>> 110507

oh goodness i swear i will complete IT tomorrow.

heart emote <3

hehe me with butterfly wings ^^

{ fate can act in a curious way } 4:21 AM

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

>>> jobless

so ends my stint with citib*nk. im relieved, but yet a bit yi han that i didnt finish the assignment (though siangee says i shldnt be)... LOL.

anw i think i learnt a lot by working there... not necessarily about the things i was dealing with or about the customers, but abt office work and adult life...

two and a half months. but i cannot tahan until 3 alr la... i keep taking off to do my uni stuff but i can sense that they dun really believe me and quite bushuang oso... so ya lor...

anw i think, i've learnt all there is to learn alr, with them... yea.

well... :D why cant i kena a good and shuang job for a change?!?!!?!

{ fate can act in a curious way } 7:01 PM

>>> 020407

I SWEAR, I WILL NEVER, EVER, BE LAST MIN AGAIN.

thank you god pls help me.

AHHHHH.

{ fate can act in a curious way } 3:13 AM