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omg i've been staring so long at the computer doing the stupid app that my eyes are hurting.

im so freaking confused, now i know exactly what its like to have ure heart and head in conflict, its like you want to do something but you know you cant, cause it conflicts with your rational thoughts or preconceived notions or whatever.

meeting rongsiu in school tmr to get recommendations, send out our app for the attachment and eat the second stall in the canteen. HAHA.

sometimes i think that if u really cared u'd put a little more effort into things.


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zheng yu and i on pk talking. LOL.

so confused :/


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i dont know how to phrase what im thinking.

i've realised that physical and emotional wounds are startlingly similar in certain ways... they both heal with time and (in the case of the physical) probably form a scab, which misleads us (being idiotic) into thinking that its healed completely simply because theres no more pain. and then we go do stupid stuff like peeling the freaking scab off and as a result, expose ourself to a whole new wave of pain and (perhaps) emotion.

um, that was an analogy. not sure if i got it right. but yeah that sorta suits how i feel now.

i hate it when i cant change things.

they say that sometimes, when smth sounds too good to be true, it probably is.

sometimes... its just almost too easy.

i wish i knew what to do!

sometimes i really irritate myself.


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it kinda shocks me how some people have so much money until they can go buy all the balenciagas and pradas and miumius that they want. haha, random comment from reading blogs.

and it also surprises me how much people can be in denial (i mean, seriously -.-).

anw a period of time ago i asked for three things (for details, go dig in past entries), and im so happy cause i've realised i've got 2 of those... and maybe the remaining one will come in time to come, i dont know. i hope so anyway (: sometimes things dont come in the way you expect i guess, but i guess its better to treasure what u have now as opposed to mourning over whats lost.

haha so philosophical (:


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looks like what guo lai ren say are usually true.

i thought it wasnt true back in secondary school, but now?

i realise it is.


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i dont know whether its because im sick, but i feel quite depressed ):


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ok lah, actually jc wasnt that bad lah. i miss certain of the times, and i experienced many new things which would not have been possible otherwise.

but still, the sucky results and emotional trauma. hahaha.

then again, if i could turn back time, i'd still come rj i think. just that i'd have worked harder from the start.

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AAAA A2.

i know a lot of pple wldnt expect me to get AAAA. after all, i pretty much screwed my jc life.

BDEE C5 -> AAAA A2. yes everything is possible if u buck up when you need to.

well, i am happy. and i know that better stuff awaits. (i think) though i dunno exactly what.

although the initial euphoria has worn off. (and shock) haha.

thank you to those who helped me, those who never stopped believing in me, and those who were a pillar of support for me throughout the whole exam period - coping with my panic attacks and complaints of oh-im-so-screwed, answering my questions (no matter how stupid), smsing me to accompany me, for everything. i really appreciate it. you only know who ure true friends are in times of adversity.

today was the last time im ever going to see most of the jc people for a long time, it feels like the closure of a long period of my life.

maybe this is what they call an happy ending.

xian ku hou tian (first bitter, then sweet), i guess its true.

i once said this to someone, i guess its time to reiterate it - theres a purpose for everything, and although u might not see it at that time, everything will sharpen into focus with time. do your best in everything and everything will fall into place.

i've learnt so much during this whole exam period.

i think its really amazing how jc really makes u wise up.

to you (you know who you are) - dont be sad. as i said, a levels is only a part of life, and though i know you havent performed up to ure expectations, im sure u'll work hard wherever u go and one failure doesnt mean that u'll continue to fail... though life may seem to really suck just continue to press on and u'll succeed in the end... you may even outperform those who have done well this time. no matter what i'll be there for you, just as you have always been for me. cheer up! (:

to everyone who has done well, good job.

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