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|||:.siao.er.:||| says:
looks like you havent forgotten ** completely

yes i havent and i dont think i ever will, dreaming that particular dream made it quite clear to me i think.

you3 yuan2 wu2 fen4? perhaps.

but i've thought through this so many times and i guess, if its fated to be, we'll meet in the future again, somehow, someday.

if its not, well, we'll just never meet again.

i never found out which one you'd prefer.


>>> 251206

ok its coming to the end of the year and im feeling quite sad so i shall blog.

i've said it many times and i'll say it again - jc was a horrible experience and i never want to go through it again. there are so many things that i would change if i could turn back time, but i shant elaborate on them; why talk about things that cant be changed? yes. anyway the things that i have learnt are as follows.

(these might sound rather disjointed, but im just typing as i think)

1. friendships are fragile, and nothing is absolute. your closest friends could drift away from you, and one day you could be nothing more than acquaintances. friendships need effort from both parties to be sustained.

2. friendships are only a part of life, majority of life doesnt include friends and lots of the time, friends cant help. yes this sounds pessimistic but it is horribly true in adult life i think - there have been so many experiences in jc that support this.

3. you can only fully depend on yourself. and dont underestimate yourself cause you'd be surprised what you can do. pple who tell you otherwise are just talking nonsense.

4. no friendship with a guy is ever stable. enough said. my biggest mistake ever was to think that this was untrue, but it is.

5. the past never comes back. people change, environments change, and sometimes, too much effort is required to start talking again. people go on with their lives.

6. consistency is essential. this is my biggest mistake ever. oh, and kiasuism and muggerness pays off.

7. im not too sure about this - but i think you should never go into a rship or smth to that effect with anyone u treasure a lot. you will live to regret it, and it will be one of ure biggest regrets ever.

8. friends are usually right on guys, but i cant forget.

9. be nice to people cause u might need their help one day.

(to be continued when i think of more)

i just want a second chance in so many things (mainly for studies, but for other things as well, though the latter is near impossible), but im not sure if life will turn out like i want it to. i just hope it does. i really think that i'd make maximum use of it now that i've gone through so much crap.

ok i shall stop here for now. going to have a look at the uni essays.

please?


>>> 241206

yes, i am sick of the life that is perpetually fucked up.

i hate my life, and im sick of fighting against fate.

damn everything. i hate everything.

thank you very much.


>>> 231206

Chemistry
790


Mathematics Level 2
800


Physics
800

((: !

i hope a's will be like this :/

why havent i got any offers from my better schools!?!?!?! *runs around like mad woman*


>>> 211206

four more days to xmas (:

going for zhihua's birthday party tomorrow, and then some xmas thing afterwards (: FUNFUNFUN.

i would hold you in my arms
i would take the pain away
thank you for all you've done
forgive all your mistakes
theres nothing i wouldnt do
to hear your voice again
sometimes i wanna call you
but i know you wont be there

oh, im sorry for blaming you
for everything i just couldnt do
and i've hurt myself by hurting you

some days i feel broke inside
but i wont admit
sometimes i just wanna hide
cos its you i miss
and its so hard to say goodbye
when it comes to this, ooh
>> hurt; christina aguilera

not sure if i blogged this before but its a really really nice song :/ (:

to look into your eyes and see you looking back.


>>> 151206

(:

did a few quizzes for fun (:

ONE
You Are 21 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

TWO
Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.

You tend to blend into your surroundings.

Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life and you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

THREE
The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

At this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

(: !

some people are going ns tomorrow.


>>> 121206

Your Birthdate: July 12

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone.
Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them.
Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

HAHA siaoer showed me this thing.


>>> 111206

i know a lot of pple dont understand why i didnt like jc. like eugene, you said im a sad case for not enjoying jc. but i didnt. so there. and im not the only one in my class. the following exerpt is taken from reuben's blog. and i -kinda- agree with it, though perhaps not completely.

warning bitchy content for the next paragraph. i'm gonna bitch about my class. my class sux because half of them didnt go for prom. stupid loser noobs. bet they're studying for uni already. no wonder i hate the class so much. LOSERS.

didnt include the part on ct cause i have nothing against her. but see, my class is the pits. and i think anyone else put here wouldnt like it either. and i think class is a huge part of the jc experience. like now, everyone else is either overseas or having stuff with their class. so dont say its my fault i didnt enjoy jc.

and i dont have anything against the muggerness. but if you havent understood what im getting at yet, you never will, so im not going to explain further (:

DISCLAIMER THOUGH. some pple in the class are nice la. and if ure from my class and u know this blog u should be quite nice so dont take offence :D


>>> 071206

a few random thoughts.

1. i am going to get a digicam. dont care how. i'll get it somehow.

2. i want jf (if you know me well enough you'll know what jf is) HAHA.

3. grad was semi-fun. i have no idea why i got so tired halfway though.

4. i wish i had stayed over, i want to eat expensive breakfast. yes i am a glutton.

5. i hate you. i am so glad you're going army. i dont ever want to see you again (well MAYBE in about FIVE TO TEN YEARS when i've forgotten everything. i think you need to forget too. so you'll stop making irritating remarks)

6. makeup clogs up pores.

7. i want money.

8. i hope everything will turn out ok in the end.

:D !

adolescence - a stage between infancy and adultery. says:
i talking to other pple cannot is it
chenfeng says:
cannot ):
adolescence - a stage between infancy and adultery. says:
you cheebye.

HAHAHA.

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