>>> 290706

its now 917am... usually im not awake at this unearthly hour but i slept at 10smth yesterday cause i was really tired.

(dont read the bottom if you'll get offended; if you do read it and get pissed then thats ure problem. dont come and find me)

whats with people not wanting to go for prom. i really dunno what to say alr lor. some people... dont wanna go then when people ask them again then say ok. then after that blah blah dont want to go again. then after then wanna go then dont want again. gee. last day when everyone looks nice and everything and u prefer to do other things. aiyah whatever. your choice la force people to go also no point. anyway i also dont feel like wasting time on people like that, thinking of ways to get them to go.

i like james' take on this.

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actually one reason i dun mind prom cuz that night
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everyone would look good what
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a good last impression or something liddat
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aniwae now at this pt in time you ask anyone to fork out 85
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the pinch feels kinda strong
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bud since its after a's then got alot of free time to work
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and during a's that time also won't spend money 1
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so you save up what
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ya i guess so
take all my feelings apart says:
haha
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it won't hurt as much as supposed
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yea

anyway i suppose i'll have fun with my friends all the same. so yeah. no matter; less people to remind me of my miserable jc days. HAHA. or rather, i wont have to see the people who've given me misery during this period. snort!

story of my life
searching for the right
but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul
cos it seems that wrong
really loves my company

hes more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
but clouds are rolling in
because im gone again
and to him i just cant be true

and i know that he knows im unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that i am happy with some other guy
i can see him dying

i dont wanna do this anymore
i dont wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
>> unfaithful; rihanna

ok this song lyrics not very meaningful but its a damn nice song!


>>> 250706

ARGH! so many things to do!

and everytime i see your face
i know
theres a part of me that
cant bear to let you go
>> one last dance; craig david

(: going to do math tut now. sigh.

i wish i could see the future.


>>> 210706

was listening to those songs i was addicted to during the december period last year, before everything messed up, and i couldnt help feeling kinda sad. its amazing how songs link you back to certain periods in your life.


>>> 200706

SHUT UP LAH YOU ARE DAMN IRRITATING YOU KNOW.

*** ***** **** **** ***** ** **** ********** ** **** ***!

bu yao lao hu bu fa wei jiu ba wo dang bing mao.


>>> 170706

so angry but i cant even say anything ):<

its so much easier to pretend you dont exist.


>>> independence

i was thinking and it just hit me that im really a lot more independent than i was in the past, from like the j1 and sec school years.

... cause in the past, i definitely wouldnt say that i LIKED being antisocial.

dunno lah, interaction with people just makes me tired sometimes. and for some people, it just fills me with sadness and emptiness.

not going to school tomorrow, i dont think i can stand the sniffling and suppressing-of-coughs in school.

>>> 160706

being sick sucks i keep feeling like sleeping. urgh.


>>> 140706

booooo ): i think im sick. sore throat then keep coughing cause of the phlegm. then feel damn lethargic. sigh! ): ):

* **** ** ************* **** *******. and nothing is going to stop me!

actually... whats wrong with being antisocial? i kinda like it sometimes.

i shall go sleep in a while. feeling like zombie *glassy-eyed look* NIGHT.


>>> 130706

its over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
and who is one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?

and where are you now
now that i need you?
tears on my pillow
wherever you go
i'll cry me a river
that leads to your ocean
you'll never see me fall apart

in the words of a broken heart
its just emotions taking me over
caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
>> emotion; destiny's child

i guess my ct results are quite ok. for once. but damn the careless mistakes in chem and math. chem was the worst man. write c6h5 as c2h5. forget to label chiral centers when its stated in the question. draw structure miss out a H -_- now i just hope i pass bloody bio :/ e, please!! ): urgh ): ): ): but i dunno leh, somehow i think even u get an a or b for bio, it doesnt really help THAT much for ure next test. still have to mug damn hard. but i guess it does help a tiny bit.

yesterday was my eighteenth birthday, went drinking, i think alcohol and i dont go together (no i didnt get drunk)... i just dont like the taste of it much. ordered 4 drinks, then 2 of them tasted like antibiotics lah. damn gross. esp the martini with the stupid pickle! grossest thing i've ever tasted. i can still remember my horror upon drinking it. i dont know how people can become alcoholics. haha. went shopping with siaoer too, but i was damn tired lah. havent been sleeping much.

but although im eighteen i dont feel any different from when i was seventeen.

anyway this was a conversation between me and siaoer.
se: i still think that God puts every person in your life for a reason.
me: well then i guess his was to teach me how to let go.
after i said that then i realised it sounded quite sad.

i still cant help wondering if my one person was always you, and what you'd say about my results if you were still here.

but i guess, anything. when life gives u lemons, make lemonade -_- HAHAA.

ok time to bathe. muacks.


>>> 110706

if theres one thing i've learnt in jc, its never to underestimate anyone.

went for cip again today, did painting. feel damn sleepy now. FELT damn intoxicated by the paint fumes. lol.

* ****** **** ** **** *** *** ** *** ** * *** ****!

easy, right? :/

anyway how come people can go beg for marks until their grades can shift like siao?! things like that never happen to ME :/ LOL.

sleepy.


>>> 100706

grant me serenity to accept
the things i cannot change,
courage to change the things i can,
and wisdom to know the difference.

this is really quite meaningful i think.


>>> i miss you



... :/


>>> 070706

i'm falling apart in your hands again.

my sleep cycle is damn screwed. i sleep like 4h in the afternoon so i sleep damn late at night. then in school damn sleepy. haha.

nothing to blog about.

anyway this is random but i think my life is far from perfect.


>>> 050706

life is back to its boring self. i have given up on certain people. heh. i dunno i just think life has an element of fate lar. some things are impossible while some things come so close and then are taken away from you.

i still feel quite relaxed leh. like holiday mood. haiz.

anyway i realised that nowadays i dont like associating with guys alr. hahaha. just so freaking tired of this kinda shit. siaoer agrees that i've changed. HAHA.

i feel much better being a recluse. hahahaaha.

ok dinnertime.


>>> 040706

FIND OUT HOW SEXY URE NAME IS HAHAHA.

under 60 points= not too sexy
from 61-300 points= pretty sexxy
from 301-599 points= VERY sexxxy
beyond 600= beyond verry verry verry sexxxxy

A=100 B=14 C=9 D=28 E=145 F=12 G=3 H=10 I=200 J=100 K=114 L=100 M=25 N=450 O=80 P=2 Q=12 R=400 S=113 T=405 U=11 V=10 W=10 X=3 Y=210 Z=23

okay this is damn boliao but i got 1224 hahahhaah bet nobody can beat me LOL i think cos i got so many n's in my name snort! (:

its 212 am and im not sleeping yet lah i think tomorrow i cant wake up.

i'd say i hate you (tonight was really the last straw) but i think, sometimes we just have to let go of our anger.


>>> 030706

i hate to say it, but i think... if u were a real friend of mine, you wldnt judge me. seeing how u've known me from sec2 or smth >:(

anyway this is a damn nice song. currently addicted to it.

when im lost
in the rain
in your eyes i know i'll find the light
to light my way
when im scared
losing ground
when my world is going crazy
you can turn it all around

and when im down
you're there
pushing me to the top

you're always there giving me all you got

for a shield from the storm
for a friend
for a love to keep me safe and warm
i turn to you
for the strength to be strong
for the will to carry on
for everything you do
for everything thats true
i turn to you
>> i turn to you; christina aguilera

i've decided something. i never want to be the one who wants smth more than the other person does, in a relationship. i dont want to be the one who cares more or who loves more. i dont want to be the one begging for reconciliation when the person doesnt want it as much as i do.

(i think). or maybe its just a phase? but thats the way it is for now.

so happy. can go out and shop tmr.


>>> 020706

new template, quite nice right? hahhaa. wanted to change the font but i've no idea how (it seriously is damn complicated)... password protection's off until i manage to figure out the stupid javascript. hahaaha (:

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