you're my playground love

Saturday, May 20, 2006

>>> photo

going for zhan ma cip later.

slept damn early yest so im awake early.

anyway i've realised i've been consciously but yet unconsciously (dont know if this is understandable) trying to block off stuff related to everything thats happened... had a nice dream just now; it was nice until i realised it was just a dream!! )): so i lay there feeling sad. but after i got up i didnt feel so sad anymore, maybe my mind is less 'inhibited' or smth when im asleep or when i've just awoken. haiz ):

when you told me that you loved me
were those just words?
you cant tell me you dont need me
and i know that hurts
cos im looking at your picture
cos its all i've got
maybe one day you and me will have
one more shot
>> photo; ryan cabrera

somehow the 'maybe one day you and me will have one more shot' sounds kinda deluded? sort of. dunno la maybe im just jaded from everything nowadays.

i expect too much; before this i warned myself time and again not to expect too much, yet stuff that happened made me think after a while that it was ok to expect it. now i realise i shouldnt have.

its amazing how much one can learn from events in life, just in a rather sad way.

to all those that asked if im okay, yes i am. (meaning that i wont DIE cause of this)

i cant figure out why things turned out this way )):

{ fate can act in a curious way } 8:05 AM