you're my playground love

Monday, May 22, 2006

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went out with jing after school, ok we just went topshop in wisma cos she wanted to buy smth. that woman blew 133 on a pair of shorts! i couldnt believe my ears la when i heard the price! lol.

came home, slept.

i feel rather stressed nowadays ): sigh.

im so tired of wishing for things that dont come.

I WONT MOPE ANYMORE (I HOPE) :/

anyway i realised that most of the stuff i remember about secondary school is happy, i mean the sec3 and sec4 years. i dont remember being worried about o's, ranting, crying, stuff like that, although jing says i did. oh wells. but i realised yesterday that if you ask me to think of memories in jc, 95% of what i remember is unhappy. i dont know why. the 5% is probably meeting nice people i wldnt have known if i didnt come rj la. and the thing that made me happiest once has been squashed and stomped on.

i think i sound freaking depressed...

life is full of contradictions and ironies and stuff you cant do for the sake of other people.

blame, responsibility, care, friendship, sensitivity, anger, sadness, jealousy, love. so seemingly different yet inexplicably intertwined.

(:

... that was a fake smiley ):

{ fate can act in a curious way } 11:07 PM