>>> the way i do

your kiss
your smile
your mind
your sunlight in my eyes
i miss
your breath
on my neck
when we whisper in the night

didnt wanna hold you
didnt wanna need you so bad
didnt wanna wake up
and find that i was falling so fast
didnt wanna need you
didnt wanna need anyone
now look what you’ve done

now i cant go on without you
im naked
i cant fake it
im not that strong without you
never thought i could love you
the way i do
>> the way i do; marcos hernandez

this is such a terribly sweet song :/

i miss you like shit.


>>> 290406

jealousy and sadness sucks. haha bahhh.

so happy monday is a holiday but its ruined by co. gah.

i realised i really am very fortunate alr... as in i have a lot of nice stuff and good friends and am in a good school and everything. but i guess people just dont appreciate what they have till they're gone?

why am i so si yao mian zi?

its not fair.


>>> 270406

so angry why is my life full of shit. so complicated. haiz.

i would apologise just that i dont think im in the wrong.

grr. anyway co again today, damn tired, nine more days left (i think)... cant wait.

why do you mess me up so? i did all i did, just so that i could get this? damnit.

i hope i dont sound like im mai yuan-ing too much cause that isnt my purpose. but anyway, i guess blogs are for ranting. BLEH.


>>> it poisons you from within

damnit i am so tired, i really am.

i hate being sad and everything but i cant help it.

and as i was telling tzekwan, i think i've given too much already.

funny how nothing makes me really happy anymore.

this is tearing me up inside.


>>> truth hurts

i guess after so long, its time i made decisions, and im doing it to lessen my pain.

im sorry, you dont know how much it hurts.

>>> 230406

lalaa. i wonder who still reads my blog, its so damnit boring.

spent the entire day stuffing my face yesterday (ironically, after i lost some weight). after co went to sakae at j8 to eat with tzekwan and then at night ate even more! at yuki and yaki at cine. hahaaha! and then after eating came home and fell asleep immediately cause was so tired! must be cos of waking up early for co. snort.

anyway my thoughts recently can be summarised as follows, kinda.

well life has a funny way
of sneaking up on you
when you think everything's okay
and everything's going right
and life has a funny way
of helping you out when
you think everything's gone wrong
and everything blows up
in your face
>> ironic; alanis morissette

i've quoted this song before, just different parts (:

i always have the same feelings about different things.

i wish i knew what you're thinking; i wish i knew what to do.


>>> blind

i was young but i wasnt naive
i watched helpless
as you turn around to leave
and still i have the pain i have to carry
a past so deep
that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
i never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but i couldnt make you see it
couldnt make you see it

that i loved you more
than you will ever know
and part of me died
when i let you go
>> blind; lifehouse

zhihua sent me this song!

nothing to blog about.


>>> dilemma

its kinda freaky when people can guess exactly what you're thinking about.

i have so many things to say, but i dont know whether they should be said. i wonder whether my worries are just the result of me thinking too much.

am i too selfish and irresponsible? i dont know whether im fair to others sometimes.

)): !


>>> 130406

i know why my blog is boring. cos i dont put pikchas here! oh wells. heehee.

anyway i was telling siaoer that i find it rather ironic how people always take those who are the most impt to them for granted. im guilty of that too i think.

life is so unpredictable.

had xiaozu just now, theres erhu outing tomorrow! but im not sure whether im going yet. hehe.

oh and i got silver for napfa and band 2 for pw. alright i guess! hahaha. though it could definitely have been better (for pw more than napfa)...

so grateful for good friday tomorrow :D


>>>

2.4 was a harrowing experience. last time ever! hahaha. my timing improved compared to the last 5 years of running 2.4 but still very slow hahahaa heck!

my legs and eyes ache. i want to sleep and its 836pm!

(: ... ): ...


>>> 100406

sigh what is wrong with me. i dont know what the hell im doing. i cant seem to manage my feelings properly. maybe its time i learnt, i dont know. blah.

i've seriously learnt that insecurity is a HUGE problem for me. why cant i let go!?!!? urgh so frustrating.

okay blogging does help, i feel a tiny bit better now. hahaha.

i think co will end up wearing purple and black for the concert. haa.

worrying makes me lose weight.


>>>

this blog is damn stagnant so i shall update! hahaha.

anyway went out today to orchard! bought new bag. hahaha :D i like it a lot.

a lot of things happened lately, but i dont think i can pen them down (or type, whatever) hahaha.

yesterday i was damn frustrated but i couldnt find anything to be frustrated at so i ended up being angry at myself. hahaa yes im weird...

as i was telling jingxuan this afternoon, its amazing how much can happen in a year. one year ago, my friendships with many people were so different from what they are now.

why dont i feel safe writing down my thoughts?


>>> 070406

so its true that everything happens for a reason.

bittersweet; i finally know how it feels.


>>> ct results

ct results are back, i didnt do that well, but okay enough i think (: for my standards lar. i improved for every subject except chem (urgh, what a nightmare LOL) though not by much i guess. HAHA.

blah nothing much to write about, rj opening ceremony on saturday so no co :D !

I WANT TO SHOP ):<

and i cant help thinking, worrying, whatever ):


>>> 030406

garh i feel like im going insane soon.


>>> island creamery

went out with jing after school today, i felt so relieved to be around my rg friends once more (:

went to island creamery in serene centre and pigged out... i had a scoop of apple pie ice cream and she had this sprite float thing with banana ice cream! and we shared a mudpie! was good :D

then shopped, though we were damn low on finances so i guess it was mostly window shopping.

oh and my mortal benjamin sucks. he said im lousy again cos i never give him chocolates. what the hell.

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