>>> 310306

ah bloody hell am so freaking sleepy but have to do the stupid magnetism tut and i cant find it. yay!

feel like ponning sch tmr but people'd probably go like 'her grades like shit still pon school'... whatever lar. grr. most likely am going though. life really sucks. feel like screaming.

and oh, i think im beginning to think too much lately. either i read too much into what people say and as a result end up with inaccurate inferences, or i've hit the spot but others just dont get it.

i keep second-guessing people, i irritate myself sometimes.

am so sick of everything. do whatever you want. i dont give a damn.


>>> geek in the pink

i dont care what you might think about me
you'll get by without me if you want
i could be the one to take you home
baby we could rock the night alone
if we never get down
it wouldnt be a letdown
but sugar dont forget what you already know
that i could be the one to turn you out
we could be the talk across the town
dont judge it by the colour, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away
like the geek in the pink
>> geek in the pink; jason mraz

nice song! :D


>>> destroy all hope

I CANT STAND THIS MUCH LONGER, REALLY I CANT. I FEEL LIKE IM GOING CRAZY SOMETIMES. LOL ARGH MEOW.

>>> erhu outing

hahaaha no school today so went out with other rjcohuuz pple today, huiling, me, tzekwan, vivian, khoo huiling, zongjin and marcus. ahahaa. ate lunch at yuki and yaki in cine (DAMN NICE FOOD I WANT TO EAT AGAIN AHHAHA) and then stoned ard cos we cldnt decide what to do next. then went to take neos and went to huiling's house to sing karaoke. HAHA. to save money cos going kbox wld cost 15 bucks per person. then after tt went tp for dinner cos khoo and zongjin were going for jinying. haha. NICE FOOD TODAY I THINK I ATE A LOT.

anyway on a different note, rongsiu says shes very influenced by me cos im such a cynic and keep analysing the stuff pple do and their personalities. hahaa!

oh, and i realised tt nowadays all my closer friends are somehow or other involved in co. sort of. except a select few. and i felt ok going karaoke-ing with co pple even though i wldnt have done it with my class :s hahahaa. what does that show? (this isnt a rhetorical question, i genuinely dont know)... hahaha. or maybe its just my batch pple in huuz :D

anyway im going to brush teeth and sleep now, co tmr, gah.

night computer people.


>>> 240306

i wish i wasnt so insecure; now i dont know what to think.

hai heck lar i dont want to think no more.


>>> 220306

im less and less kancheong for each subject than for the subject before. im supposed to be mugging physics now.

good luck everybody.


>>> the frustrations of bio

speechless and faded says:
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
[kai chen] k, die le says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
speechless and faded says:
HAHAHAAHAHAA
speechless and faded says:
THIS SUCKS OKAY
[kai chen] k, die le says:
*pulls out hair

the frustration bio causes :/

PROXIMAL CONVOLUTED TUBULE, okay i am going to study more now! ARGH!

SLKAJDAJDXSALKXS!


>>> respiration rocks

this exam period is really trying.

*_* im seriously feeling like that now.


>>> realisation

at least now i know (:

quite happy.

but then again that little happiness is overshadowed by the horrible cts. URGH.

when i dont have smth, i yearn for it. when i think i have it, im scared of losing it. oh well.


>>> 160306

its very disheartening to find that your differentiation sucks when common tests are approaching. AHHH!!! *runs around in hysterics*

i've found that im damn insecure, im always seeking affirmation and assurance. think i should do something about it. but i dont know what. HAHA.

sigh! :/


>>> 150306

i think i've seriously lost weight from yesterday, haha!

i dont know whether some things are better left unsaid.


>>> walking with children

went for cip today. think we walked like 5+km with the children at macritchie cos we were supposed to be teaching them how to appreciate nature and plants and whatever but i think the only thing we accomplished was getting them and us tired out :/ HAHA.

VERY TIRED NOW DONT FEEL LIKE MOVING.

speechless and faded says:
u know just now
speechless and faded says:
i swallowed a kokokrunch whole
speechless and faded says:
it was quite traumatising
speechless and faded says:
HAHA
[kai chen] burnt bobby says:
EH, WHEN I JUST LOOK, I SAW AS "KOKKROACH"
[kai chen] burnt bobby says:
HAHHAHAHHA
speechless and faded says:
HAHAAHAHAHAHAA
speechless and faded says:
I DONT EAT COCKROACHES LIKE YOU OKAY
speechless and faded says:
HAHAAHAHA
[kai chen] burnt bobby says:
if u did tat, its SERIOUSLY TRAUMATISING

lol! help i feel like a blob now, dont feel like doing anything.


>>> jealousy and envy

was reading someone's blog and there was this quiz thing, one of the questions was whether u've cried over the opposite sex before. and she went 'yes... duh'. whats so duh about that?! :/ i sure havent, at the most damn sad only. HMM! why am i so detached when it comes to this kinda things. i dont get it myself. maybe its an isfp thing. (out of the 3 isfp pple i know, i think almost all 3, including myself, are like tt)... :D dont know la.

and i cant help feeling jealous, even though theres probably no reason to be at all.

and i wish you'd stop confusing me. gah.

was reading some of the notes i received during rgco farewell 2004 from the xianyue people and i just feel kinda weird when reading stuff like 'good luck for ure o levels!' and 'thanks for being a part of rgco xianyue!' cos it seems like such a long time ago, the rgco days :/

going to get new phone later, my samsung phone is seriously screwed, i havent been receiving messages for the past 3 days or so. sorry if u messaged me and i didnt reply! ):

okay going to study.


>>> mysterious

i just realised that some people have mysteriously disappeared from my msn list. somehow, even though i dont recall deleting/blocking them. HAHA. weird. nevermind too lazy to do anything about it...

nothing much to blog about, there was co camp on friday and saturday but i only dropped by on friday night :/ have to admit it looked quite fun though, though i think it might have been more fun if it was an rgco camp. sometimes i think i never grew out of the all-girls thing. heh. oh wells.

:D !

not much of an update, but heck :D


>>> the both of you

i wont say i'll be happy whichever you choose, but i know you'll be and thats all that matters-


>>> of exams and fear

i think its time i get my priorities right and focus on the things that matter, forgetting all those that dont.

>>> 090306

gp was bad, i didnt have enough time, was scribbling like a mad woman towards the end, ha! i bet the people around me thought i was crazy. oh, and during gp, me, tk, may and zongjin were all sitting in a row! the co row. well, may's an ex-co person. but oh well! :D

anyway my mortal benjamin from 07S03D the junior class smsed reuben and this is what it said: 'eh my angel is fucking lousy lor'! gah, not even like im the last person in class to write! well that kinda acted as a catalyst for everyone in class to write, i guess they didnt wanna get scolded by THEIR mortals, ha! :/ anyway i wrote back. he should be glad. snort.

as time passes i realise how alone i really am.

im such a cynic, this stuff doesnt even get me sad anymore.


>>> 070306

similar, yet different.

some things just amaze me.

okay off to study, gp common test tmr.


>>> 040306

co was horrid today. i think i should start practising more. my standard has dropped like siao. but the thing is, in rg i would be damn irritated if i didnt get recognised, if i didnt get to sit at the outermost row, etc. (yah la i very petty, i know. hahaaha) but nowadays, i just cant be bothered. whats so bad about sitting inside. at least you dont have to prac so much :/

haiya a lot of my thoughts arent suitable to be publicised.

on temporary hiatus. nothing to write about nowadays.


>>> 010306

garh i wanted to blog about something but i forgot what it was.

anyways im very tired but still have to do integration... ahh!

i dont like coming online as much as i once did. i dont know why. and its like nowadays when im online i appear offline quite a lot. hmm!

oh, and i think people's rxns towards the recent d-x system failure is really quite telling of a person's personality. but i guess the rxn itself depends on whether the blog is important to you (frankly, it would never be to me, i guess i dont grow attached to things that way)

i hate to say this, i thought u were wrong about me, that you had misunderstood me; but as time past, i realised that you were right :/ but i cant change it so oh well (:

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