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Sunday, January 15, 2006

>>> jc friendships

haha i feel a bit depressed but i cant really pinpoint why.

anyway i was telling xj yesterday, in rj you can find loads of friends, but its very difficult to find zhi1 xin1 hao2 you3's... those that understand you and would stand by you no matter what...

some people really confuse me, sometimes they seem to be nice and to want to be your good friend and everything, but yet when its time to choose between supporting you or another person, they choose the other. i dont know what to make of that. such epimeral and superficial friendship. or do i just not understand enough?

that got me really confused cause i was thinking that if it was in sec4, dj xj and alpphie would definitely have stood by me. and others like tk and hl.

and i've realised (seriously and truly) that if someone bitches to you about other people, chances are, shes bitching about you to others as well. (not that i have the experience or the misfortune to find out about anyone doing this to me, but its probably happening) this isnt true in some circumstances, but you'd have to be REALLY good friends with the person. just like how i would never bitch about my best friends.

and another thing i've realised about friendship is that everyone has good or bad points, whether the good points are enough to make up for the bad points determines whether that person is a potential good friend. haha. make sense? oh well.

sometimes i feel like some people are close to me, yet i cant really confirm whether they're really considered close friends. confusing isnt it. oh wells.

i dont understand myself sometimes!!

i think i'll be changing the password of this place soon, i feel i need more privacy.

{ fate can act in a curious way } 1:21 PM