>>> 301005

some people just get on my nerves for no reason at all. and its not like they did anything bad to me. i just dont feel like talking to them and... i dunno. lol. im weird.

went out just now, saw ccp at marks and spencer in centrepoint. hahaha.

bought quite a few things, overate as usual. (: i NEED to go on a diet. ):

monday tomorrow!


>>> spanish

hahaa harshil helped me dl this! nice nice.

yo hit that
would you like a drink with me
(if you dont mind, can i talk to you, if its alright)
i want your body close to mine
(all night, while we’re dancing, in the moonlight)
we could spend the night in ecstasy
(kissing, touching, caressing)
you know that you dont have to leave
(tonight)
saying why didnt i go home with you tonight

in fresh from out of town
just breezed in so i thought i’d take a look around
and find a party where the vibe was right
im talking maybe meet a honey take her home tonight
so shades on, top's off the whip
taking in the sights as i cruise the strip
as i pull up to a red light
i see this pretty little shorty in my headlights

this girl looked half black yet half oriental
man this chick's got class and style
i'd like to ask her for her credentials
name, address, numbers to dial
she plays tuff when deep down shes gentle
aint that hard to read the signs
this girl bangs like Dre instrumentals
well heres an acapella of mine

girl, would you like a drink with me
(if you dont mind, can i talk to you, if its alright)
hold your body close to mine
(all night, while we’re dancing, in the moonlight)
we can spend the night in ecstasy
(kissing, touching, caressing)
you know that you dont have to leave
(tonight)
saying why didnt i go home with you tonight

scene two
all up in the club
got my game tight up about to tear it up
could be a night that i wont forget
boy im looking for a honey and im confident
i was dancing but i had to stop
when i clocked this fly girl wearin’ a halter top
she had her hair done, nails right
this senorita had a booty that was so tight
she was a, hot girl that looked continental
damn, her body looked so fine
the way she spoke, i saw her potential
if looks could kill, then she’d do time
i dont claim to speak perfect spanish
but i do know a few lines
this female slicker than your average
and i gotta make her mine
>> spanish; craig david


>>> 251005

sometimes i feel im getting more and more uptight, to put it nicely. -.-

anyway jing called me yesterday at around 12smth to say that she'd been locked out and asked if she cld camp over for a night. so yeah she cabbed over; the cab fare was seventeen bucks o.O LOL. so she slept with me HAHA. spent a lot of time talking, think i only fell asleep around 3 or smth. and then in the morning she wore my uniform to school hahahaa.

went out with rongs to shop after op dry run, but we just ended up sitting around and eating, lol. cos we didnt know what to do in orchard.

i miss those times so much. im really sorry i didnt notice these things happening and how bad the situation was.

its so tiring to perpetually have to guard myself against the external world. i dont know why im feeling like this. is this what the real world is about?

well i wonder
could it be?
when I was dreaming 'bout you baby
you were dreaming of me
call me crazy, call me blind
to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

did i lose my love to someone better
and does she love you like i do
i do, you know i really really do

well hey
so much i need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away
so sad but true
for me theres only you
been crying since the day
the day you went away

i remember
date and time
september twenty-second
sunday twenty-five after nine
in the doorway with your case
no longer shouting at each other
there were tears on our faces

and we were letting go of something special
something we'll never have again
i know, i guess i really really know
>> the day you went away; m2m


>>> 241005

hmm anyway this just set me wondering... when people say stuff like 'i dont care even for a moment about what you think' or 'i wldnt care even if you dropped dead'... (from my msn list, lol)... (shit im having problems expressing what i wanna say)... do they really mean it? cos if you really mean it, and dont care about that person at all, then there isnt really a need to write it in your msn nick alr what.

?!?!?

hahahaa. not making any judgements or anything, it just hit me. (:


>>> 231005

i realised im becoming a bit antisocial lately towards certain people. dont know why either.

anyway thinking of it, i still feel quite sad even though it probably wont cause any major problems in the future. but i know i could have done better and i didnt, which makes me feel irritated with myself.

so im feeling a bit down now, but i guess thats just a passing phase. i hope it doesnt come back to haunt me in the future. lol.

:/ ...


>>> true

im weak, its true
cos im afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cos my heart keeps falling faster

i've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so i will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
this is true
>> true; ryan cabrera

damn sweet song! (:


>>> half an hour

went to school for half an hour this morning! -.- cos school ended at 830 for science pple! urgh. should have ponned. anyway i convinced siaoer to pon her ccas to go out with me. cabbed down to ps and ate macs breakfast. that peeg. she found her muffin thing in the big breakfast too black. so she took out the sausage, most of the egg, and happily went back to the counter to complain and get a new set!! HAHAA. rolls around. so we got extra food.

spent the afternoon wandering around orchard, i got a new pair of earrings! birthday present from er (:

going to sell gp bull at open house tomorrow! (:

anyway i think the pink nike stuff selling now are damn nice!

drats. okay off to do pw. taas!


>>> 191005

im stuffed... ate so much.

anyway went to the dentist just now. so now my teeth are nice and white. :D quite scared to eat coloured foods now though. hahahaa. (: and i still have a grand total of three ulcers in my mouth. urgh! its damn pain lah. had problem eating this morning. was telling jean that i think i'll lose weight, but looking at the amount of food i just had for dinner, i highly doubt it. (:

*burp*...

anyway i guess im recovering from the trauma. (:

from shiqi's blog:
can dere be platonic frenship between a guy an a girl? i tink YES definitely.i mean if yr single, does tt mean half the world is your Other Half.wow mans.wad an exciting love life rt. mi mom doesnt tink so tho.she says if yr gd frens w a guy, in e end one will like the other.no other way abt it.but i totalli beg to differ.

HAHA. i agree with her mom leh. as in, not that a close platonic relationship between the opposite sexes is impossible, but its extremely rare. haha. but i guess it all depends on the people involved and the definition of 'good friends'... comments anyone?

and from siaoer's friend siqi's blog:
AND the coolest thing here's to have SEX. once you're no longer a virgin, you rock ! you're majestic ! awesome ! cool ! be damnit proud of it ! hurrrr .. too bad, i guess we're just brought up in a more moraled way. american culture's no culture at all. my roomate's a junior (turning 21) and she has a grandson ! isn't that so .. amazing ! HAHA kinda screwed up, i know. well, her boyfriend's older than her mom, so that explains it all. and every weekend, she'll come back with a whole new Sex Experience to share with everyone .. thank you but no thank you !

LOL. damn weird. the thought of having a bf older than my mom is just plain gross.

school tomorrow again!


>>> 161005

I WANT MY BIRKIES. someone buy them for me please! 100+ only. hahahaa. damn! no money.

some things really amaze me. its weird how some things work.

and i realised my intuition is really quite accurate :D


>>> another quiz

First, name 20 people you know.

1. daijing
2. tzekwan
3. jean
4. alpphie
5. huiling
6. liangcheng
7. eugene
8. zhihan
9. kaichen
10. jingxuan
11. yanshan
12. rongsiu
13. xingjuan
14. jivanaah
15. jonathan
16. liru
17. siaoer
18. liyu
19. shiqi
20. peishan

Then, fill this out according to the people you chose!!

Is 9 a boy or a girl?
guy
Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple?
*blinks*
How about 18 and 4?
*BLINKS AGAIN*
When was the last time you talked to 12?
a few mins ago on msn!
What is 6's favorite band?
eh... dunno! lol hahaa.
Does 1 have any siblings?
lol no!
Would you ever date 3?
im sure i would lah! (:
Would you ever date 7?
-.- he says i wannr date him.
Is 16 single?
eh i think so?!
What's 15's last name?
chua
What's 5's middle name?
?!?! she doesnt have one. LOL.
What's 10's hobby?
pipa-ing ((:
Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?
BOTH GIRLS.
Random fact about 1?
super duper ultra nice hahahaa.
Have you ever had a crush on 8?
... huge one lorrr. hahahahaa.
Where does 9 live?
eh, eunos isit. somewhere there lah.
What's 4's favorite color?
eh. i dunno actually. not pink. probably black.
Are 5 & 6 best friends?
hahaah. i guess not?
Does 7 like 20?
?!?!! dun even know whether they know each other. LOL.
Does 8 like 19?
they dont know each other. HAHA.
How did you meet 15?
camp!
Does 10 have any pets?
i dont think so! hahaha.
Is 12 older than you?
nope younger by a few months! (:
Is 1 the sexiest person?
*CHOKES* hahahahaaha.
Have you ever given 13 a hug?
lol yeah. i even have a photo of me doing it ((:


>>> -

-chenfengg says:
the more i think abt the rest of the world getting a the sadder i get

i think this basically sums up everything. yah b isnt bad. but its lower than what most people got, which i cant accept. if it didnt matter, it would be okay. but it DOES matter, damnit its promos. and the more i think about it the more i just feel like breaking down. wasnt so affected at first but the more i think about it, the more irritated i feel. i thought i would be able to get a. and it could have been if i didnt make so many careless mistakes. and what the hell am i going to get for other subs if i cant even get above the mode or smth for the subject which i was most confident for?

-chenfengg says:
hahaha
-chenfengg says:
u know what
-chenfengg says:
there are tears coming out of my eyes

its ironic how i can still laugh.






[edit] omg. my mood swings are damn freaking scary. im feeling happy again! and its like. 2 min since i posted the above. and i realised that most of the girls in class didnt get a's... not that it makes much of a difference la. but this is just a comment since im rational now. LOL. sigh thanks to those who comforted me or tried to, lol. im really thankful for you guys. [/edit]


>>> quizzy wizzy

1. The time now? 1040 pm
2. Were you named after anyone? eh no. named by some fengshui person though. HAHA.
3. Do you wish on stars? nope.
4. When did you last cry? cos of prelims results i think? cant really remember.
5. What is your favourite meat? eh anything also okay.
6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf? dont have any cds LOL.
7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? of course lah! ((:
(where's 8?)
9. How do you release anger? bitch (:
10. Where is your second home? eh? school ah?
11. Do you trust others easily? no. like absolutely not.
12. What was your favourite toy as a child? eh, maybe polly pocket or barbie doll. those are the only things i remember playing with (:
13. What class in school do you think is totally useless? PE!! (: urgh. yes i know i am very sporty thankyouverymuch.
14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? lesser since coming jc.
15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THAT IS!
16. What do you look for in a guy/girl? can talk a lot with me. looks are secondary, lol. (yah lah i know it sounds terribly easy but its not okay!)
17. Would you bungee jump? no. too scared of dying (: !
18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? nope. i kick! (:
19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? ben and jerry's phish food! yummy ((:
20. what is your favourite colour? PINK!!
21. What is your least favourite thing? hmms, not sure leh!
(where's 22?)
23. What do you miss most right now? sec4 days! (:
24. What are you listening to right now? pretty boy by m2m
25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? pink!!
26. What is the weather like right now? its at night! not raining or anything.
27. Last person you talked to on the phone? HMM. dun remember! (:
28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? looks lah, isnt that natural?
29. Do you like the person who sent you this? koped it off someones blog. dun even know that person. hahaha.
30. How are you today? its been bittersweet.
31. Favourite drink? depends when!
32. Favourite alcoholic drink? eh the only alcoholic drink i've drank (or drunk?) is that blue vodka you can get at 7-11. after prom ((:
33. Natural hair colour? brown
34. Eye colour? black. can only see ure reflection one. cannot see the pupil. LOL.
35. Wear contacts? occasionally but usually too lazy.
36. Siblings? two brothers.
37. Favourite month? dec! holidays mahh!
38. Favourite food? a lot lah ((: food is good.
39. Last movie you watched? corpse bride! with jean and rongs! ((:
40. Favourite day of the year? my birthday!?
41. Are you too shy to ask someone out? no if its just friends only.
42. Scary movies or happy endings? scaree movies!!
43. Summer or winter? summer ((:
44. Hugs or kisses? ehhh dunno! ((:
45. Do you want your friends to write back? just do if ure feeling boliao! (:
46. Who is most likely to respond? hmms, dunno leh! (:
47. Who is least likely to respond? ditto!
48. What book/magazine are you reading? eh, not reading anything!
49. What's on your mouse pad? ...
50. What did you watch on TV last night? didnt watch tv!
51. Favourite Smell? yummy food!
52. do you regret ever breaking up with someone? eh? never even get together with anyone how to break up! -.-
53. Time of finishing? 1056 pm

>>> results tomorrow

feeling weird now. sorta like a mix of irritation, sadness, anxiousness and melancholy.

not very good feelings i'd say.

and its at times like this when i wish i could turn time back, but (obviously) i cant.

wish some people would just disappear (well at least im not having murderous thoughts)...

feeling quite drained.

i realised i always blog when im sad. but i guess this kinda functions as an outlet.

results tomorrow, i dont know how i'll do.

i'll just hope for the best i guess. tired of wondering.


>>> wednesday

my ankle is itching like crazy. vbgrfvbrfjgvrfv.

anyway sometimes i wonder how people'd react if they were me, especially when i see them having such big reactions to things that seem so small in comparison. okay i do have reactions to those small things too, but i get over them pretty quickly. hahaha. maybe past experiences have made me cynical.

lol.

okay that paragraph might not have made sense to you (:

sometimes i think i say too much to the wrong people, even though it doesnt really have an impact or change anything.

i think i have unrealistic expectations of certain people...

ahhahaa. this post is like, so enigmatic. feeling introspective i guess :D


>>> quizzes from rongs

hee rongs just gave me a couple of quizzes to try. see this one (:

mood analysis test http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm

MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS

You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.

You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realizing your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.

You don't like conflict and you endeavor to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

>>> maybe

talked to shiqi yesterday, i think shes right.

thought about it the whole night and i think it isnt right to risk a friendship for stupid things like this unless you're absolutely sure, which im not. in fact, i'd say im very unsure.

its just so much easier to remain friends.

and i think i treasure you too much to lose you.

>>> dont love you no more

for all the years that i've known you baby
i cant figure out the reason why lately
you've been acting so cold
(didnt you say)
if theres a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you dont want to talk to me girl
(tell me)
okay i know i was late again
i made you mad and dinners thrown in
(the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long
(i wanna know)
im sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
dont think that im the only one here to blame
its not me whos been going round slamming doors

thats when you turned and said to me
i dont care babe whos right or wrong
i just dont love you no more
>> dont love you no more (im sorry); craig david


>>> promos are over

promos are over, they didnt exactly go well for me. but whatever i guess, i'll cry only when the results are out. haas. for now i shall relax a bit.

who cares about s papers anyway >:((

anyway on a brighter note. went out with jing and alpphie today. cos i end exams today. though the two of them have econs mcq tmr. went to this turkish restaurant place in suntec, where we ended up pigging out la. it was pretty ex but i guess the food was quite good. alpphie had her hair cut, i think i should too. mine looks really gross now. shopped around with jing during that, though i didnt get anything. den we went to candy empire in millenia walk. its this nicenice sweet and biscuit shop. heehee. bought this wafer thingie filled with marshmallow and some starburst gummies (think they're usually only found in australia)... now i know why im so fat.

meows.

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